“There’s nothing more dangerous than when you get used to feeling bad”.
The other day a friend at work asked how I’ve been feeling.
I was great for a while, working out and eating well. Then last week I noticed a few warning signs of a flare. I tried to ignore and brush them off, but “mind over matter” only works so well.
I finally had to admit: I’m getting sick again.
The symptoms aren’t the same as usual, though, so I did a lot of hesitating before I made that admission. I told my friend, “I’ve felt worse than this before, that’s why I didn’t recognize it as a flare”.
My friend looked at me knowingly. ”There’s nothing more dangerous than when you get used to feeling bad”.
Her words hit me hard and made me think.
I became used to occasional flares, relied on them going away on their own within a few weeks. Which is why the one I had back in September went out of control before I did anything.
Weeks of suffering passed before I was finally hospitalized. Twice.
My dad was used to being in pain. Neck, back, shoulder. It was a part of his daily life for as long as I can remember.
He learned to live around the pain in his chest. Until it was no longer an option.
I’m coming to understand that wellness isn’t just absence of illness. It’s about feeling good.
Silly on the surface, but think about it. How many of us just get by from day to day? Many’s the day I’ve needed a barrel of caffeine just to get me through, and I know I’m not alone.
When was the last time you felt good? Not just un-sick.
For me it was when I was eating well, making sure to focus on that which served my body best.
So the first thing I need to do, once this blows over, is refocus on what makes me feel good. Eating healthy food. Limiting carbs. Walking. Jogging. Stretching.
Because there is nothing more dangerous than when you get used to feeling bad.
Do you ever feel like you’re just getting by?