Sometimes I don’t wanna be the bigger person.
I don’t wanna play nice.
I don’t wanna be polite.
I don’t wanna be good.
I’m not suffering fools too well lately. I feel like my patience is wearing thin in a lot of areas, worn smooth like rocks after the ocean’s onslaught.
I’ve spent years spinning things. Saying things the “right” way. Being as kind as I can.
But right now? Sometimes I don’t wanna be kind.
I know that once I feel better I’ll get back to my old self.
But do I want to be that old self?
There’s something to be said for being kind, and there’s something to be said for being a doormat, too.
There’s something to be said for being good and nice and not wanting to hurt others (and I never want to hurt others no matter how badly I’m feeling), but there’s something else to be said for telling it like it is when the truth needs to be told.
Especially if the alternative to telling my truth, to telling it like it is, is letting my feelings eat me alive.
Feelings don’t go away. They only show up elsewhere.
Maybe it’s not all about feeling sick and cranky. Maybe I’m really at an edge right now, and I have a choice to either step back and play it safe…or to step forward and see what awaits me.
Do you ever just get tired and “not wanna”? What is it you don’t want to do?
I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow. Does that count? It’s not that I don’t like working. I just don’t like what my workplace has become, and I don’t like having such a long commute.
Ugh I hate my commute too, I totally get it. It’s never easy when the workplace culture has shifted – I’ve been through that, too. Here’s to a good week!
This has been exactly me lately. There are things that I just don’t want to do, people I just don’t want to deal with, and conversations I just don’t want to have. I’d much rather stomp my foot and throw a temper tantrum instead.
Hey, sometimes a well-thrown temper tantrum is just what the doctor ordered. Gets attention, anyway.
There are many things I don’t wanna do
I hope you feel better, but if you don’t wanna play nice ALL the time anymore, well that’s sometimes a good thing!
Yeah, sometimes it’s best to just roll with a concept once it hits you over the head enough times. Clearly, being a goody two shoes people pleaser isn’t working anymore.
OH so many times, and I’m not always nice. Typically honest, but that doesn’t mean nice.
I hear you. I spend sooooo much time and energy trying to figure out how to be honest and nice at the same time. Much too much energy.
OMG…. this is me right now! The frustration of being nice is probably going to kill me today!
Well I hope it didn’t actually kill you.
I love this, girl. And oh my, yes – a very fine line between kind and doormat. {I skate it, too.}
I definitely stray towards the “doormat” side too frequently. I might live there, actually. I need to move out.
Let’s both put our skates away, shall we?
Today i want to stamp my feet …
I think grownups should get a mandatory, like, 20 or 30 minutes a day (broken up or taken all at once) when they can just regress and let it all out. The world would probably be a much better and happier place.
Yes! And honestly, when I feel that way I just go to sleep. It’s not a good solution, but it’s what I do.
I did that on Sunday. It worked in the moment, and that was what mattered. You do what you need to do.
That’s exactly what I tell my children.
Sometimes you don’t want to do it but you’ve got to take that head of yours and do what needs to be done.
And always try to do the right thing: that’s what makes it hard.
Especially being the bigger person.
In the end, we just have ourselves. That’s all we got. Who we were in this life.
I love the last line. You always manage to give me more to think about. Thank you for that.
I have a serious case of the I don’t wanna’s right now too! Hope you find the answers you need.