An open letter to all of my blogging and writing friends out there…

 

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Who do you write for?

The great question.  One which every blogger asks him/herself from time to time, I’m sure.

If you’re fortunate enough to have an audience who loves your voice enough that it doesn’t matter what you say, you’ve hit paydirt and good for you.

Otherwise? Who are you really writing for?

As I told you in the past, I’ve been spending less time here because I’m working on a book.  I’m also lucky enough to be working on a freelance job which takes up quite a bit of my time.

Because I need to write.

Be it here or in a Word document or as a ghostwriter talking about all sorts of random nonsense I would never have known anything about otherwise.

I might not always be saying what I want to say, but the stuff I have to write keeps me sharp for the stuff I want to write.  Either way, I know I’m blessed to be writing at all.

And even if I never get paid to do it again, I’ll still write.  Because it’s one of the few constant compulsions which has spanned the breadth of my life.  It wouldn’t be there if it wasn’t supposed to be there.

Same goes for you.

The guiding force in our universe didn’t give you a way with words, my beautiful friend, if you weren’t intended to use that gift.

And it’s likely that you feel the need to use this talent.  Because it’s inside you, wanting to get out.  That’s the whole point.  Your job on this planet is to express this gift for the good of others.

And there are others.  No matter your message, no matter your story, if there is one other person who can relate…your job is done.

But you’re never finished.  Because there are more stories inside you – a whole wealth of them, waiting to float gracefully or perhaps struggle to the surface.

And there will be other people out there, waiting to hear your voice even if neither of you knows it yet.

And if no one ever reads it but your family and friends, you’ll still be the winner in the end.  Because one more person in the world made use of their talents instead of keeping them hidden away, and that kind of energy heals the world in time.

So do the world a favor.  Write.  Be it on your blog, in a bestselling book, in a journal.

Share your beautiful self, even if it’s not all beautiful.  Because even though we’re all so different, at heart we’re fundamentally the same.  We all get scared, we all feel ashamed of ourselves sometimes, we all feel goofy or horrible or funny or clever.

Let it out, and remind someone else that they’re not alone after all.

Get it all out there.  Let writing be your therapy.  Let it heal you.

Let it fire you up and give you a reason to bounce out of bed in the morning and a reason to smile with self-satisfaction when your head hits the pillow.  So many people never get the chance to feel that way – don’t let your chance pass you by.

Just write.  For you.  Because you need to.

I’m sharing this with the lovely Shell at Things I Can’t Say – because don’t we all need to pour our hearts out from time to time?

 

I sortakindanotreallybutsorta announced this on Twitter…what was it, last week? I think it was last week at some point.  The days tend to blur together when I’m sick.

(Also, can I take a moment and send a tip of the hat to Twitter and the fact that I miss being there so much but at the same time find myself much more productive without it?)

Anyway, I sortakinda made it a point to mention that I’ve lost 50 pounds.  But I framed it in the context of the fact that I.absolutely.cannot.wait. to buy new clothes for the fall.  Because I really can’t wait.  Seriously, check out my Pinterest style board if you think I’m kidding.

To answer any questions which may have you raising your eyebrows:

Yes.  A lot of this weight loss has to do with illness.  But not all of it.  I mean, it’s not hard to gain weight back after you’ve been sick.  I managed to maintain my original loss over the course of the past 7 or so months and have lost since then.

No.  This is not where I want to end up.  I have at least 50 pounds to go before I reach the highest end of my “healthy” range.  But it’s a nice start, right?

It’s nice to feel smaller.  Today I wrapped my towel around myself after my shower and you know what? It closed all the way down.  I can cross my legs in the car or on the train.

Sometimes I have to remind myself to cool my jets.  Like, I’m not skinny.  And I don’t want to be.  I don’t think I even have the frame to carry “skinny” well.  I’m broad and wide.

I’d rather be Sophia Loren, if given my druthers.

 

Yeah. I'll take that.

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I keep saying to myself that I can’t wait to eat again.  Because eating is a challenge when I’m coming off a bad flare.  This morning, for instance, I ate half a muffin and felt like I was going to be sick.  The other half still sits here, on my desk.

Anyone want a vegan muffin top?

But you know something? The idea of being able to ever again eat with abandon scares me.

I scare me.

I’ve been doing a lot of work, most intensively over the past six months, on compulsive eating.  How the ego plays such a huge part in the whole mess of addiction, the stories the ego feeds us which keep us in the same old patterns of victimization.

I know my issues.  I’m working through them.  And writing through them.  30k words and counting.

I do love eating healthy food.  I’ve been embroiled in a tawdry affair with quinoa for some time now.  I wish I could grow avocados because it would save a lot of money.  I love juicing and making green smoothies.

But I’m still afraid.

Because I have gained it back in the past.  I’m currently smaller than I’ve ever been in my adult life, but I’m not much smaller than I was around five years ago.

So it’s scary.  Because I don’t want to go back there.

And I want to continue this love affair with good food.  Because if there’s one blessing I can take from this horrible, ugly illness it’s the new relationship with nutrition which I’ve been forced into.  And I want to share it with y’all!

I love the gentle understanding my body and I are coming to.  Sometimes it’s one step forward, two back…but it’s progress.  Before I got sick…again…I was doing some easy yoga in the mornings and stretching in the evenings.  To connect with myself and be good to myself.  Not to lose weight.

I’m trying to learn to like myself.  I also need to learn to trust myself…

…as I put together my dream closet via Pinterest.

Have you ever gone through a big weight loss? How did you handle it?

 

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You may have noticed that I haven’t been around much lately, either here or on your blogs.

I’m sorry, I really am.  It’s not that I don’t love you (I do!) or that I don’t care what’s going on with you (I super do!).  I’d love to be out there, giving you support or laughing at your hilariousness.  I really would.

I even have a few posts in draft form and just need to actually, ya know, post them.  I still want to share my experiences without sugar/starch, and how I prepare my “staple” foods.  Coming soon, I promise.

So where have I been?

Unlike in my past, uh, hiatuses, this isn’t because I’m sick or because of any drama or trauma.  I actually feel freaking fantastic right now. I believe that my diet is already helping me, along with meditation and other techniques I’m learning about and working on.

Here’s the truth: I’m birthing a baby of sorts right now.  No, not a human one.  A book one.

Yes! I’m writing a book!

All I want to say about it right now is that it’s non-fiction, based on helping others to get through issues which I’ve been working on for my entire life.

I’ve been so lucky in the past two months.  Thanks to the beautiful Erin, I was led to Amy Oscar and her Soul Caller Circle.  This Circle has inspired me and led me to work on so many things in my life – and the best part is, the more I learn, the more I’m led to new teachers and their wisdom.

I’m finally understanding how I can use my talents and experiences to help people, which is what all I’ve wanted to do for my entire life.

I have literally never felt so inspired and driven.  I am all about this right now.

I spend a little time every day telling myself it can’t be done – I’m not a professional, I have no credentials – but I know that’s just fear talking and I push it away.  I know there’s a way I can make this happen, because the end result is a desire to help people who are struggling with the same issues I’ve struggled with.

Not to be rich or famous.  Just to help people.

But rich and famous wouldn’t hurt.  #justsayin

By the end of the day I’m completely wrung out but I feel like I’m doing something special.  Even when I’m physically exhausted I feel mentally energized and positive, looking forward to another day of learning and writing.  Actually looking forward to tomorrow – something I can admit I haven’t done in a long time.

Except on Christmas Eve.  Duh.

Does this even sound like me? I’m sitting here laughing at myself because I’ve never felt like this or sounded like this before – at least, I may have talked about being jazzed over a project or new idea, but I’ve never had such conviction that the universe was fully behind me.

What did Oprah call this? An “A-Ha” moment?

FYI, I snickered when I typed that.  Rest assured, I haven’t changed so much after all.

So that’s that.  I’m writing, and trying to check in on y’all on the Twitter when I can, and reading & commenting whenever I get a chance.

I’ll be posting whenever I can, though maybe not more than once or twice a week for now.  But who knows, maybe I’ll feel a burst of inspiration here, too.

And I love you guys.  #thatisall

 
Waterfall

Waterfall at Gaylord Opryland Hotel, Nashville

I’m so mad at myself right now.

See, I was at Blissdom this past weekend.  In case you forgot or something.

In a word, it was amazing.  Inspiring, life-affirming, heart-expanding, and generally awesome all around.

Gazebo at Gaylord Opryland Hotel, Nashville

However.

I didn’t take a single picture of any of the people I was there with.

There’s a photo of me and Frelle.  And I posed with several gorgeous ladies against a brick wall on Thursday night.

That’s…it.

I hate myself.

Jumping water fountains at Gaylord Opryland Hotel, Nashville

But that’s not the point of this post.  Not entirely, anyway.

See, while I attended some wonderful and informative sessions, there was one which really stuck out for me.  The session was led by Jeff Goins.

Now, Jeff, I’m gonna level with you here and I hope you don’t think less of me for it.  I took one look at you and thought “This kid is leading a session?”.  Because you’ve been blessed with a youthful countenance and, well, I don’t always associate youth with wisdom.

Palm trees at Gaylord Opryland Hotel, Nashville

As is often the case, I was wrong.  Because you rocked my world.  In a “we made no physical contact whatsoever so my husband can stop thinking bad thoughts right this very minute” sort of way.

See, my friends, something happens when your heart hears the words it’s been whispering to you for so long coming out of someone else’s mouth.

Of course, much like everything in life, what I heard and later read on the worksheet was colored by my own experience.

For two years I’ve been wanting to write about my feelings surrounding the title “caregiver”.  I’ve started and stopped more posts than I can count.  I wrote the first chapter of a book.  I even started up a whole new anonymous blog about a year ago, in an attempt to share some of the mess that lives in my head.

It’s more than that, though.  More than getting it out of my head and onto the internet or into a Word doc.

It’s the nagging suspicion that our story could help somebody else.  After all, it’s rare that two newlyweds in their early 30′s are called upon to drastically change their lives because a parent becomes ill.

Or is it so rare? See, how do we know until someone shares with us?

But there was the other nagging question of whether people would still like me or want to continue reading my blog if they knew how much I don’t even like myself sometimes.  The bitterness I sometimes feel, the sadness and resentment that rises to the surface.

It ain’t pretty.

So after I burst into tears at a table full of strangers (who were beyond sweet and understanding, and I am so grateful), I struggled to get my emotions in check.  Just as I stopped crying, the girl to my right touched my arm.

Waterfall at Gaylord Opryland Hotel, Nashville

Hers is not my story to tell, but suffice it to say that her story is similar to mine.  She told me that by sharing my experience, I helped her realize something about herself.

Whoa.  Hold the phone, kids.

That cemented it.  It was a done deal from that moment on.

I need to share this, even if it’s not always pretty and smiley and made of chocolate like so many things on my blog are.

I need to open up.  It might help someone else do the same.

This situation could be turned into a blessing, an opportunity to reach out and connect with other people in our shoes.  We might not be so unique after all.

There could be someone out there, wondering what it would have been like to shop for her own home, missing the days of alone time and last-minute plans.  Someone just like me.

But one of us has to get the ball rolling if we’re ever going to find each other.

So thanks, Jeff, for proving me wrong.  You rock, by the way.

Have you ever wanted to write about something but felt like you needed to censor yourself? What’s the worst you think could happen if you opened up?

 
Letter

Dear Future Me:

I wish I could say that I’m writing this letter from a place of confidence and security.  I wish I had wise and pithy words to wow you with.  I wish this letter could be an inside joke between you and me – you know, kidding around about choices I made today and how they could have rippled through time to affect you.  How’s that “no caffeine” thing treating you, ha ha ha?

I wish I could fool you, but I know I can’t.  Because you’re me and, ideally, you’re wiser than the me I am right now.  I’m sure you can see through my BS.

So what do I say to you?

I guess I can say with all sincerity that I hope I’ve made the right choices.  I hope that you’re in a better place when it comes to self image.  I hope you’re feeling stronger in your sense of self.  I hope that you’ve stopped second-guessing yourself so much.

It’s also my hope that you’ve managed to set aside habits which aren’t serving your best interests.  You know the ones I’m talking about.

I hope you’ve finally managed to start putting yourself first every once in a while.

That you’ve learned it doesn’t matter who you please when, at the end of the day, you can’t rest easy knowing that you’re not being true to you.  What’s the point of making everyone else happy when you’re miserable?

I hope you’ve finally started letting things roll off your back.  You know, instead of just saying that you will.

Be good to you.  You’ve come a long way in your journey and while there’s a long way to go and a lot of dreams to claim, you’re worth the work.  You’re worth the time and the effort.

You’re worthy of your own dreams.  Be brave enough to remember that.  I promise I’ll start today in order to make it easier on you.

You’re welcome.

Love (for real),

Me

 
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Hi friends! If it’s Friday, it must be another Red Writing Hood prompt! This time, we were asked to write a personal ad for either a fictional character or for ourselves.  As tempting as it was to write about myself, I decided to continue the Jill/Ryan/Kelly saga.  You can read the previous installments here: Jealousy, The Email, and Heartbreak.

SWF, 25,  in search of SM, 25-35.

You: Educated.  Gainfully employed.  Stable.  Loving.  Able to see the beauty in spending the night in.  Energetic.  Active, though you don’t exactly need to be training for an Ironman competition.  Funny.  Patient.  Mature (in other words, I hope your place doesn’t smell like feet and moldy take-out containers).  Not a Rolling Stones fan (I can compromise on many things but I just hate them).  Ready to enter into an adult relationship where we can both be our own person as well as part of a bigger, stronger whole.

Me: Grad student who works full-time.  Soon-to-be bestselling author.  Have suffered some hard knocks but haven’t we all? Attractive, stylish but not trendy or high-maintenance.  Terrific cook.  I love watching football and “guy” movies – sincerely.  I live to run, to read, to write, and to love my 4 year old daughter.

Yes.  We’re a package deal.  But I don’t expect you to play Daddy, or to even meet her unless we become serious about each other.  In fact she won’t even know you exist until after the background check I run on you comes back clean.  Hey, I might be a girly-girl who wears a jersey on Sundays in the fall, but I’m also a mom.  And my girl is the coolest, smartest kid I know.

To wrap it up: I’m the total package.  Smart, funny, driven, and attractive.  You’d be a fool to pass up on this opportunity.

Take a chance on me and I’ll take a chance on you.  You won’t regret it.

One caveat: If your best friend is female, don’t waste your time.

 
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As a follow-up to last week’s post on being a “good enough” blogger, I’ve decided to take it easier on myself.

There was a time when I would spend all day Saturday or Sunday (or both) on my netbook, catching up with my friends, visiting fellow participants from the numerous memes I participate in throughout the week, and tweetingtweetingtweeting.

Does this sound familiar? Have you looked back at a weekend on Sunday night and realized to your chagrin that most of it was spent in front of a computer screen?

Isn’t that the most depressing thing?

This past weekend I commanded myself to stay away from my online life as much as possible.  I willed myself to read something other than blogs.  I cooked (of course I took pictures as I went along), I slept in, caught up on the DVR, watched a movie.  A whole movie.  Without the netbook on my lap.  And I didn’t die.  Neither did the internet.

I wish I could say I felt no guilt while I did this.  But the guilt was there.  I should have been writing, should have been commenting, should have been tweeting so as to keep my Klout score from getting any lower than it already is (look up the word “nosedive” in the dictionary and you’ll see my Klout score).  That nagging voice went on an endless loop all weekend.  Seriously.  It’s not easy to enjoy relaxing when your conscience won’t let you do it.

Still, I managed to not give in because, frankly, I was tired.  And tired has a tendency to win after you’ve ignored it long enough.  You can only ignore your well-being for so long before your body reminds you who the boss is.

Maybe it’s burnout.  Maybe it’s a real, deep-seeded need to live a life without being chained to my computer.  I don’t know.  Normally by Monday morning I feel as though I have my groove back, to a degree.  But I’m writing this post today and I’m still lacking the get-up-and-go.

I haven’t been feeling well lately – seems like every day, on and off, I have sore throats and headaches and that genuine feeling of “Uh-oh, I’m getting sick”.  The feeling always seems to go away, which is weird, but what doesn’t go away is a general feeling of blah.

Unlike times past when I’ve been unwell, I’m not going to step away entirely.  I’m going to stick with it.  But I can’t be everything to everyone.  I can only take care of me sometimes.

It’s one thing to say you’re going to do your best and that’ll be enough, but when you’re used to driving yourself to work harder, it’s not easy to step back permanently and let things fall where they will.  But I’m trying.  I’m doing the best I can.

Maybe my best really does have to be enough.

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I used to believe that Santa Claus was real.  One night out of every year I’d lay in bed, struggling to stay awake, waiting with bated breath to hear those hooves on my roof.  I must have fallen asleep too early, I’d reason the next morning.

I used to believe in the Tooth Fairy.  I imagined her looking like the Guardian Angel in a picture hanging on my bedroom wall – bathed in a soft glow which turned her blonde hair nearly white, robes billowing softly around her as she moved noiselessly toward my sleeping form.  No matter that her hands were clumsy and probably belonged to my Mom.  I was fully committed to this image.

I used to believe there was a bad guy under my bed, a monster in the closet and that dead people would break out of their graves at night.  Yeah.  I was only slightly disturbed.

And I believed that my parents were invincible.  All-wise, all-knowing and in possession of super powers.  Don’t we all believe that to some extent when we’re children?

Of course I grew up and a lot of those old beliefs were outgrown, like so many pairs of sneakers.  Some were easy to let go, some struck a death-blow to my innocence.

But it’s taken the longest to let go of the one about my parents. No matter that I know they were younger when I was born than I am today (I was such an idiot when I was 22!), I need to believe that they had it all together and were truly as wise as I perceived them.  I want to believe that they’ll always be here for me, though in my grown-up heart I know all too well the truth of their mortality.

Lately I’ve had that reality driven home for me. I stood there last night in my Dad’s hospital room as his nurses tended to him.  A coughing fit left him nearly choking and he needed the tube that went down his throat suctioned, along with the inside of his mouth.

It must have hurt.  Tears spilled onto his sunken, unshaved cheeks.  I turned away so he wouldn’t see the tears on my own face.  I knew that seeing his pain reflected there wouldn’t help him.

My gaze fell on a series of photos on the wall.  There’s one of him sitting in his uniform with other cops and administrative personnel from his office.  He looks so healthy there, robust, with that mile-wide smile that runs in his family.

This man who served in the Naval Reserve for 31 years and was retired a Master Chief.   Who served in the Middle East post-9/11.  Who fulfilled his dream of becoming a cop at the age of 36 and still ran circles around men little more than half his age during physical tests.  He beat them all.

Then there was the man whose reflection I could see in the glass covering that picture.  The man being adjusted in bed by nurses, tears now gone, staring straight ahead.  So thin, with a pallor to his skin that 8 weeks in a hospital will give a person.

I would say I wish I knew what he was thinking, but I already know.

And it kills me inside.

And I can’t help him.

The man who comes running to my side at the slightest hint of trouble.  With whom a phone conversation can’t go by without him asking if I’m okay and if I need anything.

I know that if I were in that position, his presence would comfort me because I’d still have that childish belief in the deepest corner of my heart that he’d make things better.

Just like I know that once he’s extubated and can speak again, one of his first questions for me will be about my writing.

And I will tell him that yes, I’ve been writing.  Though whether I’ll tell him he’s the subject is still up for debate.

What’s not up for debate is that he’ll pull through this illness, will battle his way through rehab faster than anyone ever has, and will go right back to living.

I have to believe that.  Even though I no longer believe he’s invincible, I have to believe that.

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This week’s Red Writing Hood deals with heartbreak – and I just had to use it as an opportunity to continue the saga of Jill and Ryan.  In previous episodes, lovesick Jill sent Ryan an “anonymous” email in hopes to get him to break up with his girlfriend, and Ryan reflected on how it had felt to learn the truth.  Concrit is welcome, as always!

Jill slammed open the front door, dropped her things in the hallway, then slammed it shut without giving a second thought to what she was doing or why.

He’d called.

She had no idea how she’d gotten through the rest of the workday.  She made a good show of looking productive even as her mind reeled from what she’d heard when she checked her voice mail.

His voice.  Ryan’s voice.

Over the years she’d never changed her cell number and now she wasn’t sure whether she was glad of it or not.

She followed her evening routine in a daze – changing her clothes, turning on the TV, heating up leftovers from last night’s dinner with the girls.  But it only grew cold again in front of her.

All she could think about was that final confrontation.

The look in his eyes.  Everything she’d feared would be there.  Anger.  Betrayal.  Pain.  Disgust.

He’d accused her of hating Kelly for getting in the way of their friendship.  Jill tried to defend herself though she knew there was no defense.  There was nothing she could say to make what she’d done sound reasonable.  And there was no point in telling him that he was only half right in his accusations, that she thought she’d done it out of love for him.  He wasn’t listening to her.

How could you?

I don’t even know you, do I?

Are you insane?

She couldn’t tell him that she’d rather deal with the torture of seeing him with Kelly than with this fresh hell.  That his reaction broke her heart twice over.  First to see him crushed and distraught when he thought the email was real – and now this.

She couldn’t tell him that she loved him.  That she wished more than anything to be able to take it all back.

He’d turned from her and stalked away, his final words hanging in the air.

I don’t ever want to see you again.  Ever.

Then the world turned upside down.  Her knees gave way and she hit the ground with a thud, though she felt nothing but the pain in her chest.  Something or someone was sitting on it, making it hard to breathe.  She couldn’t even cry, though the tears would come later.  An ocean of hot tears, full of self-reproach.

Over time the aching eased.  Graduation removed the possibility of a chance encounter.  She didn’t have to see his once warm eyes now filled with emptiness when they fell upon her.  But still he’d haunted her.  A certain song would come on the radio.  His favorite movie on TV.  A whiff of his cologne in a crowd of people.

She had loved him so much.  And now she didn’t even recognize the desperate, needy girl she’d once been.  Time had made her a stranger.

Ryan was now a memory which Jill was careful to tiptoe around, and if she ever bumped into him it was as gently as possible so as not to stir up too much – too much guilt, too much regret.

But now? The sound of his voice brought it all back.

It’s been a long time, hasn’t it? We should talk.

He was so cryptic.  While she didn’t believe that he’d call after five years or so just to give her more grief over what she’d done, he didn’t say he’d forgiven her either.

He left his number in the message and Jill had written it down.  Now she typed it into her phone.  Her thumb was poised over “Call”.  She hesitated.

Should she?

Once again, pressing one button would change everything.

 
Beenoughme

If you’re reading this (and I thank you profusely if you are), there’s a big chance that you too are a blogger.

You don’t have to be, but there’s a good chance you are.

So there’s a good chance that you’ve experienced, and read a million other posts focused on, what I’m about to launch into:

I often feel like a not-good-enough blogger.

Only people without a blog of their own understand what it’s like to be a blogger – and not just a blogger, but one who wants to be read.  It’s exhausting.  The writing, editing, posting.  The reading, commenting, sharing.  The tweeting and Facebooking and insert-name-of-other-social-media-here’ing.

Some may feel that having a blog is simply a matter of writing things down and letting other people read them.  And at its simplest, that’s exactly the case.  But nothing in life is really that simple, is it?

Blogging is, in fact, a slice of life.  Just like there’s internal pressure to live up to other women, be they colleagues or neighbors or that pesky in-law who does everything just a little bit better than you, there’s pressure to live up to other bloggers as well.

I think it’s human nature to create pressure for ourselves whenever at least one other person is introduced into the equation.

So I feel the pressure to live up to other bloggers.  The ones who post daily.  The ones who are on social media all the time.  Who are constantly being mentioned by other bloggers, who have tons of followers, who create to sort of work which compels people to leave comments.

How do I get there? I ask myself constantly when I start feeling less-than.  What am I not doing? Where is that last puzzle piece? Where do I go to get the exposure I need? How do I learn to live with less sleep (because there’s no way these people are getting 7 hours)?

Who knows if there’s an answer to any of those questions.

The important question is: How do I make blogging fit into my life?

My life is not blogging.  Blogging is merely a part of it.  The life I desire, the one I see just over below the horizon, is a rich one.  It’s full of all sorts of things, the things I hold dearest: Love and beauty, family and friends, discovering and learning everything there is to know about everything that interests me.

That is not the sort of life spent entirely behind a computer screen.

So while blogging has afforded me the opportunity to meet people I adore and to become a part of movements like Just Be Enough, there are times when I need to give myself a reality check and remember that a life spent chasing elusive “success” is a life during which a lot of other things are missed.

So I post regularly, but not daily.  I try to return every comment and repay visits, but sometimes I just don’t cover everyone.  I want to visit all my friends and keep up with their blogs but I can’t always catch every post.  And Twitter? Well, I spend time on there when I can.  But not as much as I used to.

I happen to also enjoy sleeping, spending time with my husband, having clean clothes to wear to work.  Bathing.  You know, the things which may otherwise be forgotten in the face of a blogging obsession.  I’m looking forward to planting mums again this year and, of course, there’s the holidays to look forward to.  All of these things take time.  But I don’t want to give any of it up.

I’m doing the best I can do.

The best I can do just has to be enough.

 

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