I’m going to be really real with you.
I’m pretty damn unhappy with where my life is right now.
There are bright, shining examples of all that is right. Please don’t think me ungrateful or blind to the good things in life. I have a husband I love, who I know adores me just the way I am. He respects me every day, and every day tells me I’m beautiful.
I have a very comfortable life – I’m typing these words while sitting in a recliner, practically new laptop in my lap, with my Christmas tree glowing by my feet. We have plenty of food in the kitchen, all the hot water we need, drawers full of clothes and the house is generally kept at a comfortable temperature. There’s money in the bank. We just went to Disney World.
I have a crazy, unruly, uncouth family who I love, who I know will always be there for me.
Aside from past health problems and the challenges I still face, life is much better than it was for a few years.
On the whole, I live a good life. I know that there are people in much worse shape than I.
And yet. I’m unhappy.
I’m unhappy because I’ve let myself gain a lot of weight during my recovery process.
I’m unhappy because I’m facing a pile of medical bills (and the prospect of another surgery), plus credit card bills.
I’m unhappy because as much as I love my husband, most of our interactions occur while sitting in front of our respective computers.
I feel limited by our living situation – not being able to come and go as we please, as other childless married couples get to do, because we have Rob’s dad to always consider. I’m unhappy because we’ve become complacent when it comes to speaking up for what we need as a couple, let alone as caregivers.
I haven’t seen my friends in a year.
I can’t drive to the grocery store, let alone anywhere else.
My spirit is lower than it’s been in a long time.
I feel completely disorganized and messy. I don’t feel as though I have much control over my living environment.
I feel so limited in so many ways.
And this is what needs to change. I know that deep down inside there’s a vibrant person who isn’t afraid to speak up for what she wants. She feeds her soul what it needs – connection, friendship, laughter, creativity, love, romance, quiet, peace, joy. She stands up for what she needs, wants and deserves – even if it’s not always the easiest thing to do.
That’s where my goals for the year came from. They cover all the areas of my life where I feel I need the most work.
But let’s face it – who sticks to year-long goals or, heaven forbid, resolutions? That’s where this blog comes in. Blogging daily, even if it’s just a quick video or a pic or a few lines, will keep me on track.
And you, my friends, will play a part in this as well. I need you to come along with me – share your own goals, your wishes, your hopes. There’s a lot of power in claiming what it is you want, not quieting yourself down, and just admitting that you want more out of life than you currently have. Don’t listen to the naysayers who want to remind you that it’s pointless to set resolutions – because what we’re doing here is setting goals. And we’re gonna help each other to figure out how to make those goals a reality.
With that in mind, in case you didn’t see my goals when I listed them over on Facebook, here is what I’m working toward this year:
- Have one date night per month with Rob.
- Have family and friends over for dinner at least once per month.
- Say YES to more opportunities, be they professional or social.
- Hit income goals.
- Erase all debt.
- Read three books per month: one personal growth, one spiritual, one for fun.
- Get driver’s license.
- Meditate for at least 20 minutes per day.
- Lose 75 lbs.
- Exercise for at least 30 minutes per day.
- Practice guitar one hour per day.
- Write and self-publish new book.
- Declutter home – ruthlessly!
- Work on one home-related project per month.
- Blog every single day about progress – whether written or via video.
It’s a lot to tackle in one year, but a little bit of progress every day is what counts.
Do you have goals for 2015? What are they? How can we help each feel victorious this time next year? Leave a comment and let me know!
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